Don't really know why I'm writing this here. Maybe just in case I die in the next while and I want my family to read this and know things I don't really want to talk about.
Anyway, I'm 17. I'm also shy and unattractive, which isn't the best quality for man-catching. Anyway, as I said before, I'm 17. I have also never been on a date before, or anything romantic at all, with anyone.
I just started University, in which talk of sexuality is much more potent than in High School. I have a course in Greek Civilization, which, of course, involves a lot of Greek Art. Greek Art, of course, involves a lot of looks at the male genitals.
When you're a little girl you think "Ewww, penises are gross" and such. Since I've grown up I'm supposed to think that male genitals are great for pleasure and stuff, aren't I? But I don't. I still think of the penis and testicles with disgust. I find them "icky".
So then I started thinking about my sexuality, and how I don't think I'd mind being with other women. I don't think I'd care if I was with a guy or a girl. I mean, I still think guys can be sexy, but I can think about girls that way too. I mean, awhile before thinking about all this, I got a girl!crush on Dakota Fanning in the movie Push. Something about her skinny-dirty-punk-chick look did it for me.
So, umm, yeah. I think I'm attracted to both sexes. Or, at least, I'm open to both sexes. Urban Dictionary classes me under bi-curious.
I wonder what my parents would think of this. They think I'm so innocent and stuff. They never would expect I'd think on these things. They would also never suspect that I read boy-on-boy porn fanfictions... not that I have, or anything *cough Draco/Harry, Sokka/Zuko, Jet/Zuko cough* I'm sure they wouldn't mind, though.
Anyway, that's all.
Edit: I've decided to ponder different things I'm attracted to in each sex. I'll keep adding to it later on.
Male FemaleLooks Hottest in: Turtleneck sweaters wearing only a striped collared shirt that is a men size and way too big.
Sexiest attitude: Angst, sensitivity, need-to-be-healed, dangerous Innocence/petite or grungy/spunky
Sexiest Body parts: Shoulders (I have a thing for shoulders) Hips and/or shoulders (shoulders are so sexy!) I like 'em skinny w/ curvy hips and little breasts.
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