Is it nerdy to have a title that is a quote from a Wii Fit mini-game?“The abbreviated exam week meant that Wednesday was the last day of school for us. And all day long, it was hard not to walk around, thinking about the lastness of it all…
“It must have been like this for Margo, too. With all the planning she’d done, she must have known she was leaving, and even she couldn’t have been totally immune to the feeling. She’d had good days here. And on the last day, the bad days become so difficult to recall, because one way or another, she had made a life here, just as I had. The town was paper, but the memories were not. All the things I’d done here, all the love and pity and compassion and violence and spite, kept welling up inside me. These whitewashed cinder-block walls. My white walls. Margo’s white walls. We’d been captive in them for so long, stuck in their belly like Jonah…”
- John Green, Paper Towns
I have this song title stuck in my head. It’s a Japanese song, so I have no idea what the lyrics in it actually mean, but I do know that the English translation of the title is “One More Time, One More Chance.” This title adequately sums up what I’m feeling right now. I have only one more day left of high school before I graduate. I only have one more day, one more time, one more chance. After Monday, exams start. On June 25 I officially have graduated high school. On June 26 I pick up my report card and walk out of the school, and never have to walk back in again.
And it just seems so unreal. I mean, I find it hard to believe that it’s done. It’s gone by too quickly; it can’t have been four years already, I can’t be going to university so soon. I’ve built my life around high school’s beige walls and grey-tiled floors. I feel secure in the home I have there, and now I have to abandon all of that and move on?
It’s just surreal. I’m in denial. I keep “thinking about the lastness of it all” and excerpts from John Green’s Paper Towns pretty much sum it all up.
“I kept thinking,
I will never do this again, I will never be here again, this will never be my locker again... This was the first time in my life that so many things would never happen again.”
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